Vallorie, are first Christmas apart and we spent it away from mom I missed our family Christmas Eve gathering. Mom misses you and so do we all I cry Val for a few minutes so not to tarnish your strength. You asked me to keep the family together I don't know how to do this, short of dying. It's my family falling apart Val; must I become the next Sacrificial Lamb. Uncle William is going to be coming soon to join you all. Keep a place for me continue to send me words of wisdom big sister. When I was sad yesterday I found this poem and even though it was written by someone name Ben; I knew you sent it to us all, thank you. So I post here for all to read on our first Christmas apart. My First Christmas In Heaven by Ben I see the countless Christmas trees around the world below With tiny lights, like Heaven's stars, reflecting on the snow. The sight is so spectacular, please wipe away the tear For I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year. I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear But the sounds of music can't compare with the Christmas choir up here. I have no words to tell you the joy their voices bring For it is beyond description to hear the angels sing. I know how much you miss me I see the pain inside your heart But I am not so far away We really aren't apart. So be happy for me dear ones You know I hold you dear And be glad I'm spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year I sent you each a special gift from my heavenly home above I sent you each a memory of my undying love. After all love is a gift more precious than pure gold It was always most important in the stories Jesus told. Please love and keep each other as my Father said to do For I can't count the blessing or love he has for each of you. So have a Merry Christmas and wipe away that tear Remember, I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.